It was in my early teenagers when I used to plan my birthday 4 months prior. I used to get SUPER excited about celebrating it, and just putting a plan together. Then the excitement started fading away, and my birthday was just another day. Until now. I honestly haven’t felt this feeling before. Probably because I have never turned 30 before (insert lol here).
Let me explain. The past few years have been the best, and yet the most challenging years of my life. I’ve experienced the highest highs, and the lowest of the lows. I’ve struggled with self doubt, and learned major lessons about myself. I’ve also gotten to live some of my biggest dreams and connect with some of the most beautiful humans. I am so grateful for every single experience that has come my way, because it’s honestly taught me so much about self awareness and enhancing my skill of becoming a better human each day. It wasn’t up until recently (the past few weeks) that I started getting this strange feeling about turning thirty. The best way I can describe it is I feel like i’m going to shed a layer of skin and become a brand new me with small treasure chests of all my lessons from my past and present, within me. It’s almost like I am giving myself permission to step up into an even greater version of myself. To not allow myself to continue the living in the cycle of what hasn’t been good for me, and to know that I will only surround myself with things that help my soul feel nourished, and my mind expand to a level I never knew existed. I have been real with myself and understood that the things that keep happening in my life which have a negative impact on me, are because I chose to stay the same despite the universe telling me to WAKE UP and do something about it. I am promising myself that I will do my very best to stop getting stuck in a rut, and to be conscious of the choices I make instead of allowing myself to get carried away because things feel good in that moment. I’m not depriving myself of happiness or fun, I am simply choosing where my focus goes. It feels so good to type these things out, because they emphasise my thoughts a hundred times more.
One thing I do want to say before I close down my laptop for the night is that if you are reading this and it resonates with you, please do not wait until you’re 30. And if you are over the age of 30 and feel like this post rings true, lets do this together. Let’s promise ourselves that from now on, we will be nothing but the best versions of ourselves.
Am I alone in feeling like this? Let me know! You can connect with me on Instagram. It’s the place where I post all my updates. However, I am loving this good old fashioned blogging thing, so I’ll definitely be back on here soon.
Until my next post about how much I hate being 30 (just kidding haha), thanks for reading.
Lots of love,